. . . you are doing such a fine job in keeping us the domestics well informed about the developments going on the household of the Lord, nevertheless I think we should have more material to consider by updating the one already given by you. It has become a real source of encouragement and knowing we count on you since I found when I needed you the most. Please keep giving us more spiritual food so we may be able to survive spiritually on this wicked world.
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I have recently been dealing with issues and questions similar to ones dealt with on your website, which I happened upon during my researching. . . When I first came on to your site, I felt immediate relief; it was like finding someone who knew exactly how I felt.

However, while I appreciate much of your statements, all in all, it leaves me with a bad feeling. It feels as though you might be drawing diciples after yourself, even if that is not your intention. You mention the importance of being obedient. I agree totally. That is hard to do when having personal disagreements and questionings, but I know that the bottom line is to stay faithful by remaining in the congregation, and proving loyal to Jehovah by allowing him to resolve all matters. He knows what's going on as you have mentioned and he is right now taking care of matters that disrrupt and draw away. But caution is due, brother. Remember how Miriam and Aaron spoke out in opposition to Moses, feeling that they too had been used by Jehovah. And Korah and his appointed ones together spoke against Moses, saying that they too were holy and the whole community was holy, so why should Moses 'set himself up' over the whole assembly. Something similar is happening within God's entire association of brothers and sisters today. Many from within are rising up in opposition to Jehovah. These are ones in special positions of oversight, much like Korah and his followers. It's frightening to see it happening. Many are leaving and following ones who, like Bible examples, are drawing away many diciples after themselves. . .

While you seem to be sincere, I feel it is having just the opposite result of what you might have intended. It is important to be obedient to the faithful slave, as represented by the governing body. Allow Jehovah to remove whom he feels is causing disruption, even from with in the governing body. But we as a whole, need to show loyalty to Jehovah and remain in the congregation, where we can help show love and encouragement to others.
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Thank you so much for your encouraging articles, they truly have come to me at the right time in my spiritual growth. . .

I simply wish to say that for many years I have been in somewhat of a tail spin spiritually because I could not reconcile the things that have and are happening in the congregation (even allowing for imperfection) until I came across your website. The one great struggle I have at the moment is trying to convey to my wife the things I have learnt, because she cannot understand why I have been uncomfortable at meetings and reluctant (read: inactive) to share in the ministry.

I must admit I have looked at alot of what is obviously apostate material over the last few months while researching the early history of the Watctower Society, and yet it always surprises that while they may seem ok on the surface they all eventually exhibit the bitterness and bile that comes from rejecting Jehovah's spirit and following men. And yet... but for the grace of God... I could have been seduced and joined them. Needless to say I am extremely grateful to our loving Father and the way he has used you to provide me with the nutrition I needed at the right time. May I send you my warmest brotherly love and hopes for your health. And may Jehovah continue to bless and protect you.
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Brother, if it wasn’t for your advice through the pages of your essays, I might have fallen away over the past year. I read over and over again your wonderful, beautifully written articles and essays and truly believe that the Holy Spirit is upon you. . . May Jehovah continue to bless you in comforting people like me, who are crying out to God all over the world. Please keep up this extremely important work.
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I would first like to thank you for your wonderful, encouraging, eye opening site. I hope all is well with you. I was wondering about the article "Why the need for a New Covenant?" Can you tell me when it will be concluded? It is such a good article so far and I am eager to read the rest.

To tell you the truth I was a little worried about you because I saw no activity on your site for awhile. But then just recently it was updated. Your life story was very interesting. We have (as God's people) always hinted about Jehovah doing things like you bring out in your history but I know most Witnesses almost scoff at any mention of Jehovah acting in behalf of anyone individually today and God forbid anyone be directed personally by His Spirit. I for one have never read in His Word that He would not do those things in our time. Yes yes the gifts would cease but not the direction through His Spirit. It seems to me that it would have to work more (on those who have faith to receive it) in these last days.
Please keep doing what you are for as long as Jehovah wills it and I know His blessings will be upon you.
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Dear Brother, When the Holy Spirit teaches us to put our Trust in only Jehovah, Jesus, and his word of truth - It also teaches us not to put our trust any man or group of men. There is a judgement coming from Jehovah by his Son and the spirit of his mouth. You (Dear brother Perimeno) have had a part in this by exposing (revealing) the governing body as the Man of Lawlessness - I don't think this is a time in any way encourage people to stay with the organization - rather to encourage for all to read their bibles - pray for wisdom and holy spirit - and to do as Romans 16:17.
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I was very excited about the "Three Parables with one Meaning" submitted to you. . . That parable was so well written and wonderful it brought tears to my big ole eyes (LOL). I am so happy that the faithful are doing whatever needs to be done to help. It is sad that the faithful have to resort to the net and other ways to do what is expected of them. But their love for Jehovah and his son is first and it is certainly apparent. One can see the difference between those who are faithful (truly faithful) and those who want us to think they are faithful by their use of smooth/silky wording (lack of better words). There is a different tone, feel from those who are showing true love. It shines really bright. You can hear it and see in by what they are expressing. Anyway that is how I feel it. It is like Jehovah's spirit is saying this is OK rest easy my child, this is o.k. I feel so much peace when I read things from your site. I cannot explain it, but I can feel it.
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Brother! I just found your site and writings. How long have you been here? How long has this distress among us been an issue? This is all new for me, yet I am seeing that I am not alone and that others are already knowing of these things. Although this is somewhat disturbing, it is also a reason for joy, as we are affirmed, and comforted. Jehovah bless you for yielding to His spirit in providing this much needed encouragement.

My breath has been taken away with the dawning of new understandings in my mind and heart. My mind and heart have been opened wide, to see such an expanse of detailed truth. It causes the heart to overflow! I felt great sadness when such things were trampled down and dismissed by the very ones whose privilege it is to shed forth light to yet others. The spirit of the response sent to me was so unexpected. I felt perplexed and disturbed. But, since then, even more understanding and answers to prayers have come and I am finding a path of peace, as you too, advocate.

I write to thank you, and encourage you to continue to provide this comfort for those of us seeking relief from solitude. Jesus rightly said that there would be love among his true brothers, and that it would be a source of comfort and strength. He has seen to it that we have this provision, despite the failings of the Steward.
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Greetings... For over two years now I've visited your site and have really enjoyed the fine and up building bible based essays and articles. I appreciate the warm and loving yet straightforward tone that your writings have. Now more than ever God's Household needs to build their faith solidly. Not on the flawed teachings of men, but on the life giving sayings of the: "Chief Cornerstone" (of our Faith) and the "Rock Mass": The Lord Jesus Christ.

I certainly perceive that the clear, concise and easy to understand scriptural writings on this site, (especially the ones concerning the new covenant and the irrefutable Mediator ship of our Lord Jesus Christ) will go a long way to the end of "building up the body" of Christ so that we may stand before that one "unblemished" at his revelation. For your self sacrificing efforts in providing this site and all the encouragement and edification it contains... I THANK YOU. My dear Brother. Please keep up the good work! May our Great God continue to Bless you by means of Our Lord and King Jesus Christ...
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Over the forty plus years I have been associated with Jehovahs people, alot of things have changed and a lot of bad things have gone on I am aware of , and many questions have come into my mind as to why and questions I have asked nobody could answer.. IF we wait on Jehovah, we will get our answers as you have been directed by his Holy Spirit in overturning strongly intrenched reasonings and answering alot for me. I haven't believed turning in field service reports was right since the early 70's. but it did help the brothers facing inprisonment during the Vietnaum war. and this book in book study of the minor prophets,, WHAT WAS THAT ALL ABOUT? Yes, that book was the clencher. I LOVE studying the Bible Deeply and am grateful for this website and others that challenge me to research deeply as directed by Jehovah. I feel closer to Jehovah now than ever and that there is a chance for me to survive and many others.. as Jehovah really does love us and will provide direction in spite of the WT society. This is still the truth and these are still Jehovahs people. The good news being that my sister, who was wrongfully DF,d many years ago is reading your website.. "Trust in Jehovah with All your heart" Thank you Brother for your sleepless nights and all that you do.
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Thanks for hanging on despite the pressure, my friend and brother.
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This site was one of the first that helped me to get the problems in the organization in perspective. I always come here when I want to reassure myself that it is not only me who has such feelings. A very encouraging site.
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I got a question please answer the question the most sincere way as as possible I wan tot know why u are withholding your Identity? what are u trying to hide from who Jehovah is the highest over all of the world and u can hide from the people on the earth but not from Jehovah u seem Cowardly on your ideology it seems to me that people like your self are True Apostates in the heart getting there every meeting and every time out to the field service and behind close doors u have the mark of the beast written all over your self and that is the true belief to me people like your self need to get your Priorities in order and quit being a WAFFLE stick to one side "Revelations 7:14 "And to the angel of the congregation in La·o·di·ce′a write: These are the things that the Amen says, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation by God, 15 ‘I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were cold or else hot. 16 So, because you are lukewarm and neither hot nor cold, I am going to vomit you out of my mouth." Get back if you have any idea of what u get out of this.
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Thank you for a great site, and from the comments a much needed ministry to our Lord's neglected and abused sheep. It is clear that God's spirit is directing you to stay humble in explaining what he has undeniably made clear to you. Thank you for your warmth, compassion and love. Please continue showing love to your detractors as you may heap fiery coals on their heads and per chance cause even just one of them to question their venomous, vindictive and evil hearts.
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My God! This Is A Very Spiritual Website. I am very excited that I found your Website. I...have been making contact with JW's for over a year now, but have not completed a Bible Study or been Baptised.
I just want to be VERY Close to GOD, but I have not been able to and I don't understand why???
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If it wasn't for your site, I would probably be inactive or so upset with things I don't know where I would be. Thanks to Jehovah and his son for your site brother perimeno. You are very safe to visit.
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I would say that the articles I've read ( many times ) have given renewd streanght and hope in a time of enourmous dispare and streanghten my own relationship with Jehovah in answer to my prayers. And I actually was praying for help to be honest.
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Of all the JW related sites out there yours has helped my wife and me the most. I know this has to be expensive. Wish you would put donation button on your site to help with expenses.
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I have been comforted by this site knowing that ‘concerns’ and areas in need of improvement have been noticed by others and not just myself. It is my perception that this site is not intent on criticizing the society just for the sake of finding fault or as a means of coping with negative past experience with a member or the organization but rather to help persons cope and ‘wait on Jehovah’. Material presented has provided sound scriptural arguments regarding issues which some believe exist. Questions motivated by the sincere desire to learn, understand and draw close to Jehovah are essential in building a relationship with him. Questioning solely for the desire to find fault and tear down are ‘demonic’ and I very rarely use that term. I believe that the devil is blamed all too often for man’s own folly. The material presented many times provided additional / alternative context for scriptures and principles which are important for all. All of us should have a desire to have our ‘perceptive powers trained to distinguish both right from wrong.’ Paul exhorted us in 2 Cor. 13:5 to ‘keep testing whether you are in the faith, keep proving what you yourselves are’. Then later in verse 8 he says, ‘for we can do nothing against the truth, but only for the truth’. Jehovah has chosen to use imperfect men for his perfect law that we might demonstrate our love for him and one another. We also manifest our faith and reliance on him while being trained by him (1 Pet 5:10).
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Keep up the good work. Don't let apostates enter the site. Be faithful to Jah, but respectfully critical of the organization.
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Your article on "Organization" seems to try explain the WTB@T Society represents/is Jehovah's "modern day people"......I do not agree with your reasoning/interpretation/application of scripture on this matter. It has not helped to explain clearly from scripture, Jehovah would have/form a group of people, to be organized and recognized as His gathered/selected/special people prior to the arriving of our Master Jesus.
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I really hate to see what the congregation has turned into, but I know that soon Jesus will step in and clean the congregation out, starting with the very corrupt men at the top. The internet allows me to associate with others who take their stand on Jehovah's side and put their faith in Jesus. It is comforting to know that there are so many loyal worshipers of Jehovah around the world and that we are all learning how to worship in spirit and truth. I look forward to the day when Jesus becomes king and everyone on earth is singing praises to Jehovah.
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I read your article on dedication and it really made so much sense. I found it amazing that you quoted Micah 6:8 at the end. Some months previous to finding your site and after I had explained why I was returning to the meetings after so many years in the JWD Forum, someone wrote in and said they fully understood why I needed to go back and quoted Micah 6:8 which seemed to reflect exactly what I had written about as to my reasons for my return. This scripture had such an effect on me that I printed it off, stuck it in a frame and placed it on my wall to remind me of Gods love.

Your explanation of baptism explains very clearly what it is all about; and that it should not be confused with the word dedication, which the society have used interchangebly. You are absolutely right in explaining why many have fallen away, because the Society have placed a heavy burden of responsibility on them in thier teaching on dedication, which is not mentioned in the holy scriptures. I wish there were more like minded individuals like yourself leading the way of Gods people. Undoubtably, there would be many more Jehovahs Witnesses experiencing the joy they should be experiencing right now.
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Thank you for all the effort and love put into the site, it is really appreciated. May Jehovah continue to bless you in your efforts to be found a faithful and wise servant.
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Unfortunately there is no freedom of speech in our organization neither freedom to disagree of absolutely nothing and much less to make any critics regardless as constructive it may be. Disagreeing in doctrinal matters means to be stoned to death (disfellowshipped by the judicial compressor roll) or to receive Cain's mark in the front as an eternal potential apostate. We can only do it thru sites like yours and many others behind the computers screen and thus remaining anonymous for protection against the modern inquisition applied by thousands of modern Torquemada's inquisidors around the world inside the WTS.
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Your site has encouraged me to remain inside this organization. It has also helped me to look at some information a little more openly and to be patient as Jehovah helps us to understand what he wants us to understand as we get deeper into the closing chapters of this old system.
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I have just come across your site and am reading with interest. There are a lot of things I agree with that you have written. I have recently returned to the meetings after a number of years away. Before I read your site I went back to the meetings with a view that I would only believe the things that are plainly and clearly shown from scripture and that I will not allow myself to believe things that simply don't add up. I too have decided to keep my thoughts to myself and be discreet; to wait on the changes that will come about, so as to avoid the consequences. . .

There are many people out there reading your site and finding refreshment from it. I will make every effort to read as much as I can on your site.
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The first time I read an article from you was more or less 4 years ago. It was the article “My people like it that way”. My husband didn’t know what to do to open my eyes closed for 40 years by the WT heavy indoctrination. Whenever he insisted on my reading it, at the same time I threatened and I was really about to denounce him to his colleagues elders asking them to help him since he was reading apostate materials on the internet. But, fortunately, he was untiring in patiently encouraging me and telling me that I was mistaken and that I had to read only that one, nothing more. Then I said: ok, but I assure you that it’s going to be only for this time, and that will be all.

As I progressed in the reading I was amazed to realize that I did not belong to that group. In fact, I hated it that way! But I didn’t know it until I read your article. My husband was sure that that article would touch my heart because there was no apostate connotation at all in it. In fact, I was so “loyal” to the GB and FDS that it was unbearable for me reading anything coming outside that channel. How grateful I am today that I have taken courage to read that blessed article! I wish other brothers and sisters had the same courage to do it for the first time as I did. When we take that courage, Jehovah gives us the certitude that we took the good decision. We don't have to be afraid of men.

The second one was “Who are God’s sons?” That one made me cry because I always had the feeling that Jehovah is too loving to be Father only for an elite claiming it for them in exclusivity. I really needed that explanation.

Well, after that I’ve been reading all your articles and I find them wonderful. I used to say to my husband that you were my “Damascus road” and that enables me to read everything related to the Bible with open-mind now both from you and others that make good research bringing more light to the wonderful truths of God’s Word. I came to realize that our God can use His holy spirit upon whoever He wants to do so without partiality. And among those blessed ones you certainly are included with much highlight. Fortunately Jehovah does not limit His holy spirit only within the WT Brooklyn’s walls. Please, continue your excellent spiritual work and ministry.
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I want to tell you that after . . . our discussions regarding the articles on your web site, I can't stop smiling. It feels like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel excited again regarding my relationship with Jehovah. My prayers are different lately, they seem more from the heart. The articles you've written are so refreshing, and easy to understand. I printed all of the articles on your web site and put them in a duo-tang folders with tabs to separate the different subjects. This way I can read them over many times and look up the scriptures in my bible. The understanding you have on the scriptures is quite amazing. You can see that Jehovah is guiding you with his holy spirit. We are living in exciting times!!
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I found [the subject « Born Again »] very enlightening and it has completed with more details my understanding about this complicated, polemical and controversial subject. It was really very elucidative and it has become now easier to be understood!

Your perspicacity is incredible for who could have imagined that that alternative understanding makes much more sense and it fits with much more logic as far as Born Again is concerned! Congratulations! . . . May Jehovah continue illuminating you with His Holy Spirit in order that other enlightening and new features of understanding can come to the light. . .
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I've been in the truth for over 40 years. I've been a servant or elder for some thirty years, although I'm not serving right now. I stepped down over a year ago because of the tension in the congregation. I just didn't feel physically up to dealing with the corruption and self righteous attitudes. I haven't been to many meetings over the past year. But I do want to get back in the swing of things. I'm feeling a little better physically. The article "Be Patient and Trust Jehovah" was very good in that regard.

Your web site and the 2001 translation site has been an eye opener for me. I've only known about them for two weeks now. I know now I'm not by myself. Like most brothers, I've been careful not to visit any sites other than the society's.

For forty years I've thought it was wrong that only the anointed would partake of the emblems. Do you think there are a lot of brothers, not of the anointed, that now partake? Thank you for your efforts to assist the brothers. I for one am very appreciative. I hope in some way I can do the same.
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I want to thank you very much for so many interesting articles that have encouraged us a lot and we want you to know how much and how deeply my family and I appreciate your thought provoking writings.
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You can't imagine, how many, perhaps thousands of brothers you are helping just now without your knowing it. By the way, I want to let you know that I have been reading your articles for already some years. About three times a week I take a look to see if there is something new. . . what a big ministry you have been doing to the praise of Jehovah and Jesus Christ and to the encouragement to thousands, all that with much humility and modesty. That's the way I believe an anointed should behave and work.
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I have just finished reading "Does God have an Organization" wow I was so encouraged, I feel so grateful that Jehovah has seen fit to have me know the truth, the reasons behind why I have felt so miserable at times, and so hurt and upset at the injustices done to our dear brothers and sisters, and the lack of love, why these things are. Thank you, and a fantastic article. And especially all praise to Jehovah.
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Our dear brother... I thank you so much for your site, the beefy food I enjoy is really thanks to our Father Jehovah, your efforts are refreshing, as you show care for the brothers/sisters and your sincere desire to stick close to the congregation and stay focused on the preaching work in spite of all the hassles within the organization clearly shows you are of Jehovah’s house.
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As a previous elder for 10 years…I am very impressed with your open minded view of things and not throwing the baby out with the bathwater.
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Your words and your website have been really encouraging. When I first read your story, it moved me to tears; I was at the office so I had to run and hide but I made a very long prayer to Jehovah and decided to write to you. I now find myself paying more attention at the meetings and also I find them more enjoyable – I always did, but it only had to do with the association not always about the information. It saddens me though, how little emphasis we put on God's Word and how little we are encouraged to use the Bible in our ministry, I never noticed that as much as I do now. . .
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I write to you with the greatest humility and also gratitude. I have been going through a crisis, a spiritual one, and thought I could not go any further, not for too long until I read some of the things you have written on your website, perhaps is Jehovah seeing my troubled heart. . .

My mother in law after seeing my distress. . .openly mentioned to me about some of her 'discoveries' and mentioned the existence of your website. She mentioned the word Perimeno and I searched it through Google, and that's how I found your website. . . I haven't been able to stop reading your writings and have found them the most comforting! Thank you again for your website, it's proving to be a blessing in these difficult times.
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I want to tell you that I enjoy your Essays and I look forward to the day when Jesus comes to inspect his House. Jehovah's blessing.
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I used to study with Jehovah's Witnesses. Back in that day (the early 90's), I don't think they had Witnesses who would dare to publish their own teachings, so this is something new to me.
Anyway, I'm not Christian and have no interest in becoming one, again, but I enjoyed your article on Eph. 5:33
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Hi, I was looking at your post and wondering-when Paul addressed entire congregations for their sin, or individuals have their sins pointed out and disciplined, how is that different from a sincere JW pointing out among other JWs the issues w/in the organization or their congregations or their elders? Why should they get a pass, when a individual JW is called on the carpet because they even "Stumble" someone based on stupid things (and you know folks have been counseled or worse for 'stumbling' others. If the org. stumbles-should they not be held accountable? When entire congregations were greedy and fornicating etc-John called them on it! Are we so insignificant as individual Christians that we should not call a spade a spade, or a false teaching a false teaching? Is unity something that should be constructed without a foundation of truth, or can true unity only exist on truth? What good is being IN the truth if we deny things that are true-simply to be in agreement with men who may have other things, other agendas altogether going on?. . .
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It is encouraging to find someone who is truly faithful to the word of truth.
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Thank you for your encouraging information. Many things you talk about I always wondered about. Dedication was something I never understood or believed. Thanks for making this clear scripturally. One thing I don’t under stand is, you encourage us to stick to the brotherhood and just wait on Jehovah. Why then the links to websites that are from ones who encourage us to leave the organization. They have obvious hatred for the “truth” and express it readily. Your reply would be appreciated.

Perimeno replies: Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and express your concern. I feel that some of the links on my site, such as the JW Reform movement and Jim Wheeler's 2000 English Translation encourage the brothers to do more research on their own, which may help them understand what is happening within the organization. I have not visited for a long time the other sites I have linked to, and after receiving your letter and checking them out personally I have decided to remove some of them. Some are simply expressing their personal gripes, without offering any explanation as to why these developments, over which many are stumbling, must take place. (Daniel 11:35; Matt. 13:20,21; 26:54) Thank you again for your input.
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I have printed and saved the essays that are most helpful to me and want to thank you for your site very much. . . I am having a very difficult time dealing with the goings on inside the org. To say the least things are simply awful. But I have taken what you encouraged us to do along with the Scriptures used to wait patiently on Jehovah.
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WELL SEVERAL DAYS AGO, I WROTE YOU DURING A VERY STRESSED OUT TIME AND ASKED FOR YOUR SUGGESTIONS REGARDING FIELD SERVICE. I KEPT THIS ALSO BEFORE JEHOVAH AS I WAS DEEPLY HURTING INSIDE DUE TO THE GOINGS ON INSIDE THE ORG AND FOUND MYSELF IN TEARS SO MANY MANY TIMES ESPECIALLY BEFORE MEETINGS OR GOING OUT IN THE FS.

I STARTED RE-READING SOME OF THE INFO POSTED ON YOUR SITE, AND THE INFO I COPIED FOR THIS E-MAIL HAS HELPED ME TREMENDOUSLY. I FEEL MUCH BETTER NOW AND FEEL JEHOVAH HAS ANSWERED MY PRAYER TO KEEP HOLDING ON TO HIM AS TIGHT AS POSSIBLE, AND NOT TO BECOME SO DISTRAUGHT THAT I GIVE UP. PRAYER IS POWERFUL AND I AM SO VERY THANKFUL FOR JEHOVAH'S SPIRIT AS WELL AS THOSE HE USES TO HELP US IN THESE TRYING TIMES.
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Do you have a "terms of use" for your site? I would like to distribute your information to my bible students by way of emails, and want to copy and distribute the information on your site.

Perimeno replies: The truth from the Scriptures cannot be copyrighted! I have no "terms of use." You may use or distribute anything you find of encouragement on my site.
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I have found some encouragement at your site. One of your articles deals with Ezekiel chapter 34, and it was very comforting. I believe you are sincere in your efforts to help others. I have every confidence that eventually Jehovah will make sure we have all the truth we need in order to make right decisions. . .

I do appreciate how you keep your focus on the scriptures, but as is human tendency, word gets around and the name Perimeno is gaining prominence. I'm not saying that's a good thing or a bad thing, it's pretty much out of your hands anyways. I feel it is each person's own responsibility to not elevate another human being to point where they are becoming a follower of that person. It's kind of the same trap we just came from...."The Society says..."
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Over the past several weeks I have been truly comforted from your experiences and perspective on things and thank Jehovah for his kindness and tender mercies in motivating you to share. My eyes often swell with tears of joy and appreciation as I read the outcomes to your stories i.e. The move to where the need was great and the issue with moving your furniture, or 'CO's don't go hungry'. I just now finished the story on the Police Chief in Greece. Again another encouraging story.
The advice to 'show a waiting attitude' and 'be patient and trust in Jehovah' is truly wise. . .
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Thanks for helping me slowly regain my balance as regard the organization. I really understand the fine points that you are bringing out. Your web-site is reaching many helpless ones without silencing your mouth by the society. It is amazing that something that they spend a lot of time telling us not to get on (the internet) is actually where one might find hope.
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Thank you for your inspirational site and the way you disseminate the word of God. It is a great example of how the Internet medium can and should be used for the right purpose.
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If the Watchtower was not chosen as 'Gods Organization' in the first place, isn't your site merely reinforcing the illusion that they were?
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Your failure, is in believing against all evidence that Jesus Christ EVER had anything to do with the Watchtower Society in the first place, and that those men have been appointed to outline "Jehovah's arrangement"
. . . Tell me, will you be better off for encouraging people to stay in an organization who's ridiculous teachings on 'blood fractions' could cost them their lives?
How will YOU feel in a few years when the Watchtower "allows" you to use your conscience on ALL fractions, large and small? How many people will have died in the interim, ones who "stayed in" and listened to advice like yours?
You call the WT leaders 'wicked' behind the comfort of your computer, while telling others they should still show up at the Kingdom Hall and 'obey' the WT. Remarkable.
How many more times will the WT have to redefine terms ("generations") before persons like you realize that they NEVER HAVE HAD any Holy Spirit leading them?
Again, your folly is in believing the lie that the WT Organization (which is still your idol) compares to/ or is on par with the Temple arrangement.
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Thanks so much for your web-site. Having the courage to write it. It has helped H▪▪▪▪ so much. I am sure this is some of the true knowledge that would abound in the last days. I am studying it along with the Bible... I love studying the Bible and learning new ways of looking at what Jehovah has provided. Again Thanks so much.
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H▪▪▪▪ says he will attend the Kingdom Hall Sunday for the first time in perhaps 2 years. Now you see why I shared your web-site with him. Believe me no one who has been a witness all of their life wants to be told this is not the way when we know it is. We just needed to know what was going on and now to finally understand the correct application of the scripture to wait Patiently on Jehovah. The scene comes to mind where the apostles were complaining about others expelling demons in the name of Jesus. He said "leave them alone," if they are for me they can't be against me. You are doing a good work. Keep it up, If one lost sheep is found and returned to the fold (H▪▪▪▪) then there is joy in Heaven and you should share in that joy.
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I have been a witness for 58 yrs, all of my life. I am a third generation and I have [#] more brothers and sisters, with 5th generations of witnesses. We are positive this is the true way or religion as described in the Bible. But, you are expressing what I am trying to say. The prophecies do-not apply to Christendom, they apply to us.
I hollered out loud, HOLY, HOLY, HOLY to Jehovah when I read parts of your site. I kept not wanting to offend Jehovah by refusing some of the teachings that are instructing us to follow the Governing Body no matter where it goes. That is Idolatry! I pledge my allegience to no one but Jehovah and his son Christ Jesus.
I am not against Jehovah Witnesses as the true religion. It's just things are way out of whack, and there seems to be a move to make us worship the Watchtower as Aaron did with the calf. I am sure some knew it was wrong and refrained. I am learning to bite my tongue and just sit it out at the meetings and just wait on Jehovah. Since I know others (7,000 that have not bended their knee) I can do what the Bible says and try to please Jehovah. . .
Again thank you for having the courage to write and not be a "Coward", because we need to hear from non-cowardly elders to encourage us not to leave the way.
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You take courage you are doing your job. You did more for us than everything in the Watchtower telling us to stay. If Jesus could go to the temple knowing the system was being replaced, I can go to the kingdom Hall. Just learn to shut my mouth!
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...thank you for your encouraging web site. It has helped me imensley.
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Hello and thank you for you're web site. There are a few sites that talk similar to you on bible doctrines. Being in particular that of the coming of Christ the presence to be future not ago in 1914, a few have agreed to this, my point is so many are jumping on the band wagon of witness misery. What is the damn truth then. I do believe that the WTBTS can't be right on a lot of its teachings and dealings with members, however who are these others that come on the net and screw us up even more, more to the extent that we want to just run away and hide, go away from this corrupt org,,,,but is it corrupt or is it just the apostates trying to fool us and making us confused.
Reading what you have said and the way you present your self is to me far more appealing, and what you say more believable. What of the others that say similar though.
Who to trust and is it what I was looking for an answer to the orgs unacceptable deviation from Jehovah and truth, or am I just another failure looking for a way out. What is going on.
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For the last few years, I have been unable to ignore some of the inconsistancies I have been seeing in what is taught and what the bible has to say about some things. I am not going to be specific, but you touch on many of them on your site. I find that many of your conclusions are the same as I have been holding to, namely, let things be what they are. I, however, have a problem with teaching others things that I know to be in error. I don't have a problem with preaching the good news of the Kingdom, but not being able to point out the inconsistancies as they would crop up in a bible study would bother my conscience. Especially when questions come up. I wouldn't want to be guilty of causing divisions. (which seems to be the popular df charge these days) I have spoken up a few times privately to the elders in my congregation, when I have responded honestly to others in the congregation and had been reported for doing so. I haven't been diciplined, but it is only because my intent was to be honest, and not stir up contention. Also I was able to prove my points scripturally to the elders, and it made them uncomfortable, but not enough to change their position of subjection to the society. It is good to know that I am not the only one who sees the inconsistancies, and has questioned them. I have written the society a few time to try to get some explanations of a few points, but all I get in return is a republishing of their position, and not a clarification, or ignored entirely. I have taken the approach of waiting, but there isn't any joy in that, but there is much anxiety. Hopefully I will be able to draw some comfort from you site. thanks
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I agree whole heartedly with you about not telling others about your web site, as I believe if they need to know for any particular reason Jehovah will direct them to it as he did me.
Interestingly I found your site through a post on e-watchman forum, I was searching for answers and came across his site, I began to feel uncomfortable being there and did not like his self promotion his pop culture look at things and his prophesying. I just felt wrong reading his material and didn't want to hurt Jehovah. So I prayed for help, and direction.
So I asked on the forum if their were any other sites with similar views, and Perimeno was mentioned, so I typed your name and bingo!
I was pleased to see that you stuck strictly to scripture without speculation, and were not sensationalistic, you did not put self first and always put Jehovah and his sheep's interest as priority. So I have somewhere to come to as I am alone and need good association at home, and your site has helped me, along with my personal bible study and meetings occasional witnessing, I hope to progress and become stronger so as to maybe help others.
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I want to thank you Brother for the work you have done on your site. It has been very encouraging to read your life story as well as your faith strengthening essays and scriptural truths. I have been baptized for 31yrs, it has been a very bumpy ride, was inactive for a long time, then came back only to find things worse not better. The NGO and child abuse issues happened whilst I was out, but I noticed a decline in love and brothers/sisters were suspicious of one another, the elders held the congregations together out of fear and not love, iron fists, controlling and very cold atmosphere, of course some brothers/sisters are loving, but mostly it was robotic.
Your site answered my WHY? so thanks again, helps me to keep sticking close to Jehovah and the congregation in spite of the above. Wait on Jehovah.
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I want to tell you how much I appreciate your website. It helped encourage me a few years ago to continue on as one of Jehovah's Witnesses when I was ready to throw in the towel for all the problems I saw going on in many congregations including my own.
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Dear Brother
I would like to express my thanks for all you're work on Perimeno site. I too have seen a spying and policing attitude within my congregation, a lack of love and a regimental organizational spirit amongst those taking the lead and others. I love my brothers and sisters very much, but keep quiet even amongst my family as I fear of being disfellowshiped or having to put up with suspicion. I love to witness about our father Jehovah and the love he has for us, and am looking forward to when his name will be vindicated and justice will be done, and our dear b/s come out of captivity to this organizational idol.
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I ran across your Web site on the Internet tonight. I've spent the last couple of years doing some serious soul-searching, and it's not been easy. I was raised as one of Jehovah's Witnesses, baptized at 14, served as a pioneer for years and Bethelite for a little while. I really believed everything I was told from the platform. But through the years I've seen some seriously wrong things done by those in charge in the congregation. I've seen people hurt beyond belief by those who claim to be a shelter from the scorching sun. And through the years I've also begun questioning many of the things that I've been told about Jehovah, prophecy and many other things. And I've gotten to the point where I almost don't know what to believe or think. . . It was nice to find your articles and those of several others online who still respect the truths that they learned from Jehovah's Witnesses but who see things for what they are...whatever they are.
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I have sent a few of my friends to your site but some have said they resent your harsh criticism of the Society, particularly that of the faithful & discreet slave. I can only imagine how many others shy away from your site for the same reason. I think you have much valuable information to offer and maybe many more would benefit from it if you toned down your criticism somewhat.

Perimeno replies: Thank you for sharing your concern. I can understand why some would be put off by any criticism of those we have come to look up to, but my criticism of our leaders is no harsher than theirs is of the clergy of Christendom to whom they apply Jehovah's coming judgment, but which Jehovah addresses to "my people." "'Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of my pasturage!' is the utterance of Jehovah." "A flock of perishing creatures my people has become. Their own shepherds have caused them to wander about." (Jer. 23:1; 50:6)
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I want to say how very much I was encouraged by your frank and candid lifestory that I read after I happenstanced upon your website. Wonderful! Thank you for sharing the details that are normally left out of a "cleaned up" version often found in the magazines. It has been over a year now since I have been out of association with Jehovah's people and believe me I am feeling the pain. . . When I read of your experiences of how Jehovah bailed you out of hardship at the last minute I felt the pang that I never experienced the same. Instead I always seemed to go through the trial of NOT having the answers. I felt the full weight of trying to figure out how to earn a living and keep a balanced lifestyle AND at the same time keep spiritual. . . It is going to be a long and hard road to return to Jehovah and I need His help desperately. God bless you Bro. Perimeno for your website. . .
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I want to apologize for last years rudeness and unloving behavior. I was so frustrated with being quiet about the Faithful and discreet slave and all the inconsistencies that I have been taught over the 30 plus years in the Organization. I then hear about you and your thoughts , and I thought to myself why are you not standing up and being vocal about this to your congregation or the Organization. I over reacted and I am sorry. I have been reading some of your essays and they are very refreshing.
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It is absolutely imperative that you realize the terrific effect your understanding of scripture has had on me and others. Of course, all praise to Christ and our Father!
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Jehovah has drawn me and helped me by means of the internet and, more than anything, by the Godly work of you and your website. Throughout my searching, I've always come back to your website. Since the beginning of leaving Bethel, I really have felt "God is among you." From one site to the next site to research to study to Watchtower, I've felt that the one person I could really trust for Bible truth is you. So, please don't forget that [Perimeno] because in no small way have you 'fed me at the proper time.' I want to thank you with love for what you have done.
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Hi, I wanted to stop by and thank you for your help. I am so glad I stumbled upon your site. Your writings have helped me calm down and see things the way Jehovah really wants me to see them regarding what to do with the new information I have been blessed with. I now look at those in positions of leadership in a different light. I know Jehovah will take care of all situations not in harmony with the way he wants things to be done. I am to take care of what Jehovah has given me to do and if he wants me to do anything more he certainly will direct my steps. Running ahead of Jehovah and taking matters into our own hands will certainly bring unnecessary hardships just as you mentioned.

I was wondering though what PERIMENO means if anything? Aren't I the nosey one (Smile). Thank you for your calm manner and loving and respectful way you help us all. May Jehovah continue to bless you and your family.

Perimeno replies: Perimeno (περιμένω) is Greek for "I wait", "I stay in place." (see Acts 1:4, "...keep waiting for what the Father has promised.") I chose that name when I was posting on a couple of Witness forums and was disturbed over how many of the members were encouraging others to speak out about the errors and sins of the Society, particularly about their involvement with the UN as an NGO. Quite a few had stumbled and left the organization and they were encouraging others to also leave. My desire was to encourage the brothers to stay and "wait on Jehovah," for Jehovah had foretold the worsening condition within his household. These developments give evidence how close we are to the arrival of our Master, Christ Jesus, who promised to return at a time we do not think likely; and it calls for endurance on our part. (Luke 12:40)
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Bro. Perimeno, I enjoy your website a lot. There is so much useful information. I had always wondered about how the society came to the conclusion that Babylon the Great has already fallen. I had never felt comfortable with their explanation. And my understanding has always been on the same line as that of yours. There are so many more areas where I see that they do need a refinement on their understanding. . .
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. . . about your latest essay regarding God's sons. Of all the articles I've read this has to be the best! Probably because it's a subject that has been the source of much confusion, head-scratching and earnest prayer. . . I've found the WT's explanation inconsistent and contradictory. It seems that to get to the heart of the matter I've had to dismantle some long-held beliefs and I'm so glad you've put the pieces back together.
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Some months ago I wrote to say Thank You for the info presented on your site. I had just had the bomb dropped in finding out about the JW/UN association. Since then my world has been rocked, and I have been reeling. I have lost confidence & trust, lost sleep, and lost my focus. I am still holding on as a regular pioneer, but don't know if I can continue in good conscience. I realize how much I trusted in the wrong direction, the info from the mags and the headquarters. That realization alone has served to improve, and deepen my appreciation and relationship with both Jehovah and Christ Jesus. It has got me into the Bible more than ever before. I am still confused about what is the RIGHT thing to do, but when I read letters you have written like the "Be Patient and Trust Jehovah", and the one following, it helps stabilize my shaky legs and intention to try to stay where I am at and continue to show love, and to be there when the Tower collapses. We need to pray for each other, all of us. . .
My heartfelt appreciation and gratitude for your loyalty and love for God and Truth and for being there. I look forward to slowly reading all of your site.
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. . . I have finally made a firm resolve to be reinstated, . . . and I wanted you to know that your website has been a big inspiration to me. I wanted to thank you for helping me find such a calm place from such a terrible storm. Thanks very much for your dedication to Jehovah and the hard work it no doubt took to create your website.

Perimeno replies: This brother has undergone unimaginable suffering at the hands of some of his local elders. Jehovah will see to it that justice is done. (Eccl. 3:16,17)
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I have been reading your site and at first thought you were an apostate, but now am seeing a different picture as I read more. I have been a baptized witness in good standing for over 30 years. However recently I have had family members leave the truth and they have sown seeds of doubt in my mind about whether an organization who has made as many false predictions if you will could be a false prophet. I have done extensive research on this matter and still am confused. The faithful slave clearly says they are not prophets that can foretell the future, yet they claim to represent God's thinking an interpret scripture as if they can. I am scared to discuss my feelings with the elders for fear they will think I am reading apostate literature and will look down on me, but I'm more afraid of what Jehovah thinks if I remain in this faith with doubts. Any encouragement would be appreciated. My family member reminds me that the light would get brighter in the time of the end, not continue to change.
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Are you really a witness or an apostate? Your hearing voices in your head sounds much like my handicapped son. I have been a witness for 45 years. Does the society know about you and approve of the things you are writing?

Perimeno replies:
The "voices" in my head you are referring to occurred only on three separate occasions, each time while I was praying and in direct response to what I was praying about. You might be even more shocked to know that I was "told" on one of those occurrences that it was indeed an angel that had visited me at the Convention site immediately after my baptism, telling me that I was "a chosen one." What makes you think that Jehovah no longer does these sort of things, although you know he has done it for his people in the past? (Zeph. 1:12)
I have not written my story to boast or promote myself, but rather to encourage the brothers and sisters by helping them understand that Jehovah is indeed a caring God, that he has a household and that he is deeply interested in all his "sons and daughters" within it, and that is why he is very much involved with his people today in this "time of the end." At times he does more than simply provide the daily necessities for those who are seeking first the kingdom. (Matt. 6:31-33; 2 Cor. 6:17,18) What he has done in my case he is also doing for many others who have faith. You ought to know these things seeing that you have been a zealous witness for 45 years. (compare Matt. 13:58; Heb. 13:2)
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I am . . . concerned about you exposing the dirty laundry for everyone to see. Jehovah’s organization is not perfect. It has made a LOT of mistakes and it will continue to make a LOT of mistakes. But I am going to tell you what Jesus disciples told him, where would we go? There is no other place to go. And in due time Jehovah will correct matters. But for you to expose it to the whole world to see, what do you think is going to happen to those individuals that are doing a research on the organization and come across your website? Do you think they are going to be attracted to an organization that has so much baggage? Who is doing more damage, the organization for making mistakes or you for exposing it to the whole world? Your website has been visited by more than 39,000 individuals, I wonder how many of them have been stumbled by your comments. . .
I don’t mean any disrespect, but too many people outside the organization are doing so much damage thru the Internet, that to add some within the organization is deplorable. And that’s exactly what Satan wants.

Perimeno replies:
Jehovah is the one doing the exposing. He does not need my help. I am merely explaining what has already become public knowledge.
In times past Jehovah has always publicly exposed "the dirty laundry" of his people for all to see, including the sins of their leaders. His reason for uncovering their sins and errors has been to move them to repentance, and failing that to make known to them and the whole world the basis for his coming judgment against them. Therefore he warns his people, "here I am collecting together all those passionately loving you toward whom you were pleasurable and all those whom you loved along with those whom you hated, and I will collect them together against you from all around and uncover your private parts to them, and they must see all your private parts." (Jer. 5:7-9, 26-31; 14:7-16; Ezek. 16:36,37; Heb. 4:13; Rev. 3:17,18)

Yes, it is very disturbing to have brought to our attention our rebellious and sinful condition, and even more shocking to have our opprobrium so openly exposed for the whole world to see. As a result, have you seen in your area any repentance on the part of the brothers "over all the detestable things that are being done in the midst of [us]," or are most of them more concerned about keeping these things hidden? Did Adam succeed in hiding from his sin? What do you think we can expect to soon follow? (Ezek. 9:4; Amos 4:12; 9:9,10) Consider a recent example — Nov. 9/06. (If link fails click here; December follow-up click here, if link fails try here).
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Dear Brother - I just wanted to say that your story very much moved me. It is amazing how Jehovah allows us to make mistakes and then when we realize how we have failed he welcomes us back. . .  I am trying to find my way back. Your wonderful story makes me feel as though I can. Thank you very much for the encouragement brother.
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. . . Your contributions on the web has ignited me to get back on track, I've been studying again and plan to return to the meetings for the first time in over seven years. . .
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Your website is a real 'godsend'. Rather than a 'refreshing load', sometimes I feel we are burdened by hours of preparation for meetings followed by talks that are doom and gloom. We have a great deal of truth and faithful and discreet ones are within the organisation; it's just a pity that they're eclipsed by some who appear more Corporate than Christian. Conversely, I need to check myself from becoming 'righteous overmuch' and perfectionist. There are a lot of good brothers in the congregations and I count myself privileged to have them as friends. I'm thankful you've helped me to appreciate God's household.
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I read your online story and enjoyed it. Your implicit faith in Jehovah is of great encouragement. He really is in control and I've found the more I acknowledge his personal involvement, the more involved with me he becomes. It takes courage to set up a website as you have done and I know that Jehovah must be happy as you glorify his name and congregation. Your viewpoint on prophecy is exactly how I have felt. I recently had an assembly item regarding the nearness of the end and found it difficult to avoid questionable doctrine as detailed in the outline. Really, the 'times and seasons' are Jehovah's and not ours. I like the way our new release calls this time a 'period of expectation' during which individuals can 'repent or make adjustments in their life and thinking.' That's another plus about your website - the emphasis is on preaching the good news of the kingdom and sticking to it as Christ did. Wonderful stuff!! Refreshing!
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I’d like you to know that you have been a strong influence in helping me to be determined to get to know what Jehovah has put in writing for us. You have helped me to be able to search for Jehovah’s truths and not to just settle for someone’s explanations if they don’t always measure up to scripture. I haven’t felt more confident in Jehovah, and my love for Jehovah and His son continues to grow each day. One day soon things will begin to change dramatically and I sure hope that I can help others the way that I’ve been helped by individuals like you.
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I want to show my appreciation for your very welcomed hard, and no doubt emotionally exhausting, work. This really takes some courage to present these scriptural articles, given the current attitudes in the Society today. Jehovah will bless your efforts.

Amazing good news! While some of this has been understandably disturbing, overall the information has been encouraging and inspirational. I am so energized by this new light - it is literally keeping me up at night. It is like holding pieces of a puzzle for years that didn’t make sense or fit, and this has helped to put things in place. . . Most of your arguments have been thoroughly supported by strong and proper scriptural reasoning and confirmation.
With warm Christian greetings & brotherly love. . .
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I have read most of your articles on the website, and was very impressed with your scripturally sound reasoning. I have wanted to discuss such matters for years. Yet, you really can’t afford to, because we don’t always know who are our friends or potential enemies. There is this very real environment of fear in the organization on discussing anything other than the society’s viewpoint. People mark their ‘uninspired’ books until they are red, but what of the Bible? God’s Word has often become a secondary quote. Is that not similar to how other religions and treat their books? Fear of being accused of deviating from the teachings of the faithful and discreet slave (actually the government body). This has left me feeling alienated and disconnected in many ways. However, I rely on Jehovah and his spirit which always gives me hope, endurance, and renewed vigor.

I found the article on the Who are the “Other Sheep” most compelling. . . I never thought about Jesus’ comments being directed to the Pharisees - rather than his disciples. Now this really clears things up. So at that time he was contrasting the one flock, physical Israelites, with an ‘other’ flock as the “people of the nations”. This leads to the logical reasoning that all of God’s baptized people are under the new covenant, and “one flock”. There are not two flocks (really three considering the Israelites) with two different so-called “hopes”, but two groups within the same flock - the anointed class and those of the earthly class - with two sets of positions within his arrangement, provided they remain faithful to the end. . .

Your explanations on the terms, “dedication” and “governing body”, were very correct and well supported by the scriptural reasoning. These are points I never thought about. Whenever ones try to add things - even simply descriptions or terminology - that are not in the scriptures, whole theologies have developed, similar to the rapture, transubstantiation, immaculate conception, the trinity etc.
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Dear Brother Perimeno:
I was pleased to find your website. It is very well put-together and organized, and I like the chosen theme. You have a great deal of fine information, and I appreciate the reference material as well. There is much to think and reflect on. I haven’t been able to go through all of it yet.

As far as my background for now, my family has been in the faithful servants of Jehovah for many years. I have been baptized for nearly 20 years. . .

I have read some of your articles, and agree with many of the points you have made; disagree on a few others. For example, on the subject of dedication, this was quite interesting, and something I had felt about in a similar way, since the bible never actually used that term. Also, on the operation and leadings of the holy spirit - this has also been a difficult thing to really grasp its mode of operation for me for many years, and I am only now starting to gradually getting a better sense of it. I see by your own ‘story’ that you grappled with this matter as well. I fully agree that we often hinder Jehovah’s spirit by our often biased attitudes and perspectives (personal and learned). Yet, while often its operation is subtle, we should recognize that it is quite powerful.

Your comments on a ‘governing body’ arrangement were also well taken. While, Jesus did institute an organizational arrangement for the preaching work and brotherhood, it was not specifically laid out with any structure quite like this. When I was growing up, I just assumed that the majority of the anointed ones (still on earth), conferred together on scriptural and organizational matters, and that the governing body was just a representative group of the holy ones, like a republic structure. However, when I got older, I learned that wasn’t the case. On this note, this has troubled me. I have always wondered if the ten or twelve members of the government body are supposed to represent the ‘faithful and discreet slave’, why they do not consult the entire remaining earthly family of the Anointed on important matters, especially those involving clarification of biblical insights and new or revised methods for the preaching work. It is this ‘collective’ group which makes up that class and its God-given assignment, not just these few.

I objectively read your article, The Great Tribulation = Jehovah’s Day = Armageddon. While I agreed with much of this, I did take a few exceptions to some of your final conclusions using the scriptures quoted. In solely an effort to seek the truth, and with all due respect to your presentation, I wish to give an alternate assessment on those particular points if I may. . .
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Hello Bro Perimeno,
I was just visiting your site and reviewing your writings on Dedication and Baptism. I think this is probably your finest work. . .
As it stands the way that we as Witnesses connect vow to dedication and baptism is completely unscriptural as is readily admitted in the Question from Readers in the 10/1/73 WT
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At any rate I enjoy reading what you have to say and I appreciate your love for Jehovah. I just wanted to share some thoughts on baptism that I have recently come across.
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I have thoroughly enjoyed your website. I am just wondering how you go about ministering to people. . .
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Hello Perimeno
. . . I have greatly enjoyed your site, and have been reading it for some time now. Please keep up the good work of sharing your spiritual insights with us.
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Dear brother. . .
I loved your story. . . Your site has been a special encouragement to me.
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. . . it's been very enlightening what you have written about the baptism and dedication. My friend and I have discussed it a lot. It is so amazing that a teaching that is supposed to be so fundamental and important can't be found anywhere in the Bible... if only more witnesses knew about it. It could be a shock for them at first but then they might feel quite relieved because it would ease their burden a lot. Well, I guess everyone will understand when the time is right.
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Dear Sir,
I am very encouraged by the clarification of scriptural understandings that you are working to provide. It seems that you are not trying to go against the WTBTS, but trying to encourage those in the organization that may feel there is some “hard to believe” explanations given. I’ve had to reach the conclusion after digging through about 10 different web sites proposing to support Jehovah’s purposes that I need to wait patiently for Jehovah to provide justice and absolute clarification in His time frame. I thank you for helping me to be able to reach very solid scriptural reasons to help subdue some of my many questions and negative feelings because of information I’ve come across, like E-watchman. 
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I am not yet a Jehovah’s Witness, but I dearly want to follow everything Jehovah has said and I feel as you do that it is through his organization, mainly through the scriptures. According to their fruitage, I feel Jehovah’s Witnesses are His organization. I haven’t been baptized yet because I am stuck in the military, as I have been for 2 years and 4 months. Hopefully that will be soon to change. . .

Ps… in respects to my being in the military, I have been in for nearly 7 years now and have been studying since Sept 2003. I am working to get out, as I have been since I began studying. Two months into my studies I became a Conscientious Objector. I was denied, but have still been doing everything legally possible to get out . . .

Thank you very much again. You are very encouraging and up building with your essays.
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Dear brother:
Thank you so much for all your hard work in behalf of myself and others like me who are sighing and groaning over the detestable things being done in the name of true worship. It is so wonderful to know that Jehovah will rectify the situation soon. I hope and pray that as many as possible will re-evaluate this horrifying situation before it is too late and change their attitude from "liking it this way" to abhorring it. There was a time in the not so distant past that I was "liking it just fine" and was the stereotypical "company" man as it were. I am glad that I no longer fit that mold. I hope that Jehovah will recognize me as one of his own when the time comes. Until then, I guess the only thing to do is keeping busy telling others the good news of God's Kingdom by his Son Jesus Christ. I also pray that Jehovah will bless my efforts in this regard. I really appreciate this information, I hope many others will be motivated by God's Holy Spirit to find your site and read it.
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1 Corinthians 1:10 Now I beseech you, brethren, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that ye all speak the same thing, and [that] there be no divisions among you; but [that] ye be perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgment. . .

We can and should be able to provide that needed medicine without "speaking different things" than our brothers.
example: Mediatorship / New Covenant issue. If your opinion, or interpretation of this topic and related issues is correct, some could reasonably conclude that for this basic teaching to be wrong could/would indicate that OTHER very basic teachings might well be also, therefore setting the table for "schisms" or "sects" or "subgroups" which were obviously NOT intended for God's household.

Also .."the ailing" are not benefitted by this "alternative view" they are in the long run "burdened" by it. For starters their opinion right or wrong is percieved as "right" by them. Therefore creating several dilemas CLEARLY not intended for God's Household. Given the fact that "perfect" understanding is an un-attainable in this system, means that SOME thing will NOT be "rightly" or "correctly understood." Taken together WITH this scripture..( 1 Corinthians 1:10 )..and others, dictates we not SPEAK or TEACH different doctrine. Not to mention the distinct possibility that the wrong understanding just might be our personal one...so it would be loving, humble, and the cautious path, to SUBORDINATE our view, to that of the already established teaching of the household. Spiritual Israel did not established teachings EVER by consensus or democracyof ALL it's members. That would by necessity mean that some would have to exercise humility and patience by not speaking things contrary to what those in the lead taught.

The question could be phrased this way.."How can we post in Public media teachings different than the WT and NOT violate this scriptural principle?"

Now ..none of this means that we can't recognize cognitively and verbalize what we think if we correctly see a problem...but to do it PUBLICLY could indeed be construed to be teaching by any reasonable person therefore stumbling potentially. If privately between people where discretion can be exercized the potential still exists for stumbling , but in such a scenario we are in control of who is "hearing" such things. Even when just "posting" on a public forum this would all apply IMO.

...I'll try to elaborate further later...but this is just scratching the surface of this subject with me...I understand well where you are coming from, I just want to encourage you to consider this perspective. To remove at least the "alternative doctrinal views" you have at your web-site...or at least if that is not possible upon review..you'd consider taking it down. . . I am worried for you brother and the position I feel you may have placed yourself in.

I hope this isn't offensive ..my directness...I know no other way and am terrible at communicating any other way. I hope you know the respect and regard I have for you is sincere and genuine, and not diminished by this and other points of disagreement between us. I hope if you opt to continue with the path presently embarked on that my head and gut are wrong.

. . . You're Passionate about your faith which is refreshing!! Apathetic sleep walkers bore me, and aren't my favorite associates..never were.
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Dear Brother Perimeno:
Thank you very much for your website. I believe Jehovah is and will continue to bless your efforts at preaching the good news this way. I have been a baptized witness for about 30 years now, the last 4 or five being very trying on my spirituality. . . I have recently started reading your website and I find your viewpoints to be very balanced and scriptural. I agree that there are many problems within Jehovah's household and do not feel that there is very much that can be done to remedy it. I feel like making an issue of it on one hand, but the realist in me knows that those that have any real power to change things are the very ones who have us in this mess in the first place. My question to you is this. How do you keep from being "beaten" by your fellow slaves? How do you remain in good standing with the congregation while espousing ideas that clearly conflict and contradict the self appointed FDS? I do not believe that your statements or ideas conflict or contradict the Bible, but that does not seem to be important to those who have a stranglehold on what is and is not "approved doctrine".

Anyway, your site has been a great encouragement to me. My ministry has all but dried up over the last few years, but this site (and I'm sure Jehovah's spirit) has reinvigorated me to have a desire to again have a full share in the ministry. My most joyful time was the years I spent in the pioneer activity. I hope that someday soon my affairs will allow me to be a full time minister again. Until then, I will have to be happy with the best I can do within my circumstances. Thanks again for your inspiration. Keep up the good work.
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Hi
Just wanted to say thank you for your web site, I have been bouncing in and out of the truth for a few years, I have never gotten to the point of baptism, and my husband has always been an atheist, but a few months ago we started having problems in our house, nasty spirit problems, anyway to cut a long story short my husband wanted to start going to meetings with me, is now having a study with a brother and I am studying with another sister.

So it seems I have been really blessed, and all because of some bad things happening in our house, only for some reason I have been questioning everything to do with the witnesses and am continually questioning and questioning everything, and this evening was doing some research on web sites about Jehovah's witnesses only to read some awful things which was shaking my faith even more, I'm sure if I told my study lady that I was looking all this up on the internet she would moan at me lol

Anyway I wanted to thank you for your web site, it renewed my faith even more, as I keep questioning things and sometimes I am not happy with the answer they give me, but from what I can tell from your site it seems that they have most things right but not all things, and it was nice to read that.
So I will stick with it and know that Jehovah will sort it all out in the end.
Sorry for the ramble, I just wanted you to know that you are doing some good, and it is a great site, I am sure the society wouldn't approve, which shows they don't know everything, this evening you helped restore my faith, for that I thank you.
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After sending the letter to you last night I came across "Your story" which was incredible and was really encouraging, its funny as whenever I have a problem to do with the truth one way or another Jehovah seems to show me the answer, my problem yesterday (there is at least a new problem every day) anyway it was to do with the anointed and how they knew they were chosen, so after reading your story it also felt like Jehovah had answered me.
. . . thanks again for your site it makes me feel Jehovah is with me.
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Hello and I thank you for you site. . . I have read several of your articles today and I have to say I agree on many of the points. . . I pray that all of us, would get the real sense from the Scriptures, to bring our thoughts in to captivity into the Christ, to become a full grown man in the Christ, to put on the Christ.  In my years as a witness I have always felt that we didn't give enough credit to our Lord and Master Jesus, too much emphasis on works and earning our way to life.  None of us are worthy of anything but death, none of us have the right judge others, none of us have the WHOLE SCOOP on the scriptures, I agree with you on, if the angels are desiring to peer into these wonderful truths, who are we to even think that we have the inside insight and knowledge on the scriptures?  I believe that this is a disastrous to put ourselves in this category.  Again I agree on your point let the scriptures speak for themselves, not many of you should be teachers as we will have a heavier judgment. . .
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Hi, there Perimeno,
I like your website, I am aware of “apostate” views etc, but you don’t come across as this type somehow. . .
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your website rocks
. . . I hope you are correct in assuming that we are very near to Jehovah's judgment of his people. On the other, I have allowed myself to slip so much spiritually, I'm not sure Jehovah would recognize me as one of his people. I still attend meetings, and go in field service weakly (not weekly) but I read and think about the bible and the truth all the time, most of my waking hours. I aim to change that perception in the coming days and weeks and months or however long or short the time remaining is. I just hope I haven't waited too long or saddled myself with too much extra baggage. All I can do is do my best I suppose, and leave the rest in Jehovah's hands. Keep up the good work.
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I just wanted to take the opportunity to thank you for creating your web site and I continue to find it very encouraging.  I am visiting it on a regular basis. My heartfelt thanks and appreciation.
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Dear Brother
I don't know how to thank you for the information you have provided.  I can truly tell you that I am in tears as I write this letter. . .

. . . In prayer I had told Jehovah how I was falling away from his organization and I was feeling so alone and begged Jehovah to not let go of me. A few days later my sister briefly hinted to some WTS discrepancies ( I wondered for days... is she listening to Apostates? as we are taught to do). Then we talked from 10am till 4pm, to make a long story short I ended up in the site you have up. I felt a load lifted, I'm truly coming to understand the scripture 'Truth sets you free'.

I am still in the process of taking it all in (as well as doing my own research to make sure of what I have been reading). When I didn't understand the explanations of certain prophesies, I used to just say "hey the GB must know what they're talking about, besides I'm just a spiritual babe...". But, even before reading the scriptures that substantiate what you've written... I understand.  It makes sense "COMMON SENSE". Jehovah, once again answered my prayer... he didn't let go of me. Thank You My Dear Brother, from the bottom of my heart and that of my family.
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I want to tell you how much I appreciate your giving sight to the blind. . .
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Dear brother Perimeno,
Thank you for the very interesting and conforting web-site. After reading for two weeks the comments of many EX-JW in the paradise café, it's really conforting that you openly recognize the mistakes of some of our leaders and some of our doctrines, but nevertheless, instead of leaving, you tell us that we should be patient and trust Jehovah, and stay with his people. Thank you so much for this lesson.
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Brother I wanted to let you know that I have read your essays on disfellowshiping and also the ones on dedication and babtism.  Your insight on these matters have really helped me trendmously in feeling better about myself as regards the condition I have found myself in due to being disfellowshiped eight months ago. I have truly felt like I had been thrown to the Wolves without a shephard in sight. But the worse thing of all has been the effect it has had on my dear family. All I can say is that Jah provides and we our starting to heal. Thank you again my brother, you have been a blessing from Jehovah.
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Dear Brother,
. . . recently I came upon E-watchman's website and read all of his essays then found your essays and read them, have read son f compfort's etc... Wow! I was shocked to read these same ideas here, really shocked. What an eye opener. Like learning the truth all over again!! Your essays in particular really touched my wife and myself. She somehow found your site and had me read it. . . Reading these essays has brought us back to life spiritually and motivated us. It would be hard to overstate how grateful we are to you for sharing your story and insights.
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I just wanted to take a couple of minutes to comment on your . . . essay on prophecies. There has certainly been an immense amount of work devoted to trying to unravel the prophecies contained within the bible, all to the confusion of the common bible student in his ernest desire to gain a better understanding of his Creators will and purpose for mankind. I want to thank you for dispelling much of the confusion that has surrounded our need to know in these matters. I have spent a life time listening to the various and everchanging speculations concerning future events that we obviously have no control over what so ever, said speculations being touted as gospel at the time, only proving to be false in the end. The resulting dissappoinment and frustration proving to be very detrimental to the faith and trust of any sincere lover of truth.

The insight you have provided as regards these matters has been a very timely blessing in these days of ever increasing anxiety, wroth with the promulgation of a multitude of falsehoods.
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I would also like to compliment you on your fine web-site, as it is very well laid out, easy to navigate, extremely informative, as well as being very attractive to boot. It is a very nice place to visit.
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What I appreciate about your site is that it is pointing out areas of concern within the organization.  You are neither trying to create a following, an uprising, or a reform and I commend you for that.  I also appreciate that you do not Bash brothers.  That to me is a demonstration of love. 
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"I really love this website.  Really gets me thinking. Jehovah appears to be doing fine works through you."
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"I just wanted to let you know I just got done reading your story and all your other 'adventures'. I had to write to let you know that I was totally glued to my computer screen. I love your honesty and humor."
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"Your web-site is fantastic, perimeno. A spiritual feast for any hungry ones."
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I agree completely with your conclusion that the "other sheep" foretold by Jesus had reference to those Gentiles that would be brought into the "one flock" under the direction of the "one shepherd." The class distinction between the 144,000 and the "great crowd" is certainly a related issue that will need to be addressed by the organization in the future, especially as "this generation" (of the anointed ones) continues to dwindle with the passing of time. Although I left the organization in 1977 (as a young person of 17 years old), I have tried to stay in the loop with regard to the direction of the organization. To be honest, sometimes I miss the fellowship and activity.
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"I read through your homepage at http://perimeno.ca/Index.htm and was moved with tears at the clear understanding Jehovah is apparently pouring out in spirit...What I read on your site is truth...I feel pressure to Do something but realize Jehovah is instructing me to sit, and wait."
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"This is the absolute most personal and exquisitely detailed experience I have ever read---I encourage all to read it---it is profoundly moving and faith strengthening...thank you for making this available to us"
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"I have enjoyed reading the experience of your anointing very much....it brought me smiles...even laughter, and tears. Now I am starting to read more on your site..."
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"I read your moving life experience and was in tears all the way through it--it is just beautiful. It was so profound to me that you too experience Jehovah in such a close and personal way."
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"The website is quite a gift from God to me...your website is really comforting, and I know that in reality it is not your work, but all thanks to Jehovah"
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I am an active witness of more than 20 years.  Thank you so much for your site and all the work you have done.  I would like to print alot from your site for my own viewing but am having trouble.  The right hand side gets cut off by a few words..  Can you help me.  Is your site already set for a printer friendly version?   If not have you thought about converting it to do so.
 
I have been lurking around E-Watchman's site for about a month but haven't joined yet. . . I am in good standing and am in my forties.  I am seeing so much apathy in the organization.  Even though I was apprehensive about viewing e-watchman's site and yours at first, I now view them as a blessing.  The most encouragement I've had for many, many years.  Sadly there seems to be almost no sheparding going on anymore.  Many brothers and sisters are missing meetings and haven't read magazines and wonder why Jehovah is letting things go on this way.   E-Watchman's essays sure make sense, also yours and Al's, and things written by Son of Comfort. . .You have also helped enlighten my husband. He has been a witness since 1974.   Keep up the fine work brother.   Hopefully our wait won't be too much longer.    Thank you.
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I read your wonderful and touching experience of your Baptism and the angel visit and I just had a good feeling that you were for real.  That experience made me cry.  It was so nice to find out things like that still happen.  Thank goodness for your son.  I believe I had read that you said you left your experiences on your internet site because of him.  I am thankful you did.  You have encouraged me greatly. 
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Brother, I just felt compelled to tell you how much I am enjoying your essays. . .
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Dear Brother Perimeno:
I feel so full of joy after having found yours and brother e-watchman’s sites.  There are things going on in our organization that as you are aware have caused many to stray, I myself have never strayed, I thank Jehovah for that.  But have felt many a time that I was not living up to my dedication. . . Thank you, thank you, thank you and most of all I thank Jehovah that you and the others have seen the light.
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My husband who has been a witness for 30 years together with me is very encouraged with the information in your website and also e-watchman, with so much garbage on the internet nowadays it is good to know that someone out there is helping all those searching for answers such as us. We will continue with Jehovah's help and be silent while we patiently wait for Jehovah to act.
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Dear Perimeno, bro,
I’ve just been reading your essays on your Make Sure page and I must say that the one on dedication just blew me away! I phoned my brother and told him to hurry up and read it so we can discuss it. That’s what I’ve been researching today. In the two study articles of the 1956 WT (July 1) there were 71 references to the word dedication in one form or another i.e. dedicate, undedicated, etc. 71 times!!!!! And with absolutely NO scriptural support. SHAMEFUL. Until I read your essay, I hadn’t realized just how harmful this doctine is. Here is a quote from the 56 WT 1 p. 399 What Dedication Means to Me  Paragraph 14 say:
“It is true that dedication places a heavy load of responsibility upon one. And faithfulness in carrying that load is mandatory!”

If indeed it is mandatory, then surely the scriptures would be plain in spelling it out. They are not at all silent on the matter of baptism. You’re right about our “trinity”. Up to this point I was merely concerned about the changes in the questions for baptism. But that is just a symptom of a deeper disease process. ugh.
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I was deeply interested in your explanation of the concept of dedication which not only convinced me but also relieved me of the backbreaking burden I had to carry unnecessarily for years.
You had really made a huge difference in my life
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This (perimeno's) presented understanding of dedication, changes so much how service to Jehovah is viewed. Now with a clear, uncluttered view, I personally benefit by approaching all sacred service to Jehovah with a more pure motive...thus enjoy service, meetings, personal study etc. more than I ever realised I could!

I think this is an outstanding example of the kind of truth that sets one free!! Thank you perimeno, All Praise to Jehovah.
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I was amazed to read of your experience in Greece when bothered by the demons. What is amazing is seeing how when faced with difficult circumstances you really involve Jehovah in your life.  It was inspiring to me to read of the process you went through to detemine which piece of jewelry was problematic.  Doing this right before Jehovah. It reminded me of how Hezekiah went before Jehovah and spread out before him the intimidating letters Rabshakeh had written and how he pleaded with Jehovah to save Israel out of his hand.  To you, [perimeno], Jehovah is a living God that sees and notices what is happening on this tiny spec of the earth and does involve himself personally in our life.  Like you I have the same faith in our incomparable God. A powerful experience!!!
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My Dear Brother Perimeno,
A number of years ago I read a lengthy article in a popular magazine entitled, "Why Things Don't Work?"  The editor said, "Frankly this was a challenge for our research dept."  I don't know if I've got this right or not but between you, Timothy and Watchman it's as though Timothy explains doctrine, Watchman explains prophesy and you explain the internal workings and organization dysfunction that has beclouded understanding of the other two.  I've read most of your site this morning.  It confirms all of my worst fears and my greatest hopes.  For right now  thank you.  This seems like the missing piece of the puzzle.
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. . . There are many who suffer from feelings of insecurity in Jehovah's organization, but they don't really understand why. They think it's them. Then they run into these sites and are given partial understanding, the symptoms, as it were, of the cause of their frustrations and anguish. I have spent the last close to 10 years trying to understand where the organization went wrong. I'm not sure just what constitutes an bonafide apostate, if the real ones are sitting up at the world headquarters. According to them, I suppose we all are. That having been said, places like Freeminds, give me the chills. In a sense he's doing the same thing that watchman and Timothy are doing, except they seem bent on destruction of the Society, vis enlightening the friends as to what the society has brought upon itself, but they do provide a lot information as to why the organization cannot be trusted. I'm trying to get to a bottom line here somehow, because this information that you provide really exposes the central flaws. As you noted, it goes way beyond the NGO situation. If I might use an analogy of an automobile, watchman might say that the engine is running rough. Timothy might suggest a tune-up. But you're the mechanic/engineer that does the analysis. I graduated from an engineering school, so maybe that's why tend to appreciate deep analysis...I came accross Watchman and Timothy about a year ago, and they have provided some fasciating info. But it wasn't until today that I first found a flawless owners manual, if you will, that thoroughly explains why things have gotten to this point.